My Top Ten Inspirational Songs of All Time and Why I love Them

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Each song is my favorite version.  Click on it and you can hear the song as I think it should be sung. 

  1. Amazing Grace — Etta James

Amazing grace how sweet the sound

That saved a wretch like me

I once was lost, but now I’m found

Was blind but now I see

Everyone knows this song.  It is one of the most popular hymns that was ever written.  However, I did not know the story behind it until a few years ago.  John Newton, the captain of a slave trading vessel repents for his crimes against humanity.  The song is evidence that humans can be redeemed from even the worst of crimes if they find the grace to seek forgiveness and redemption.

  1. The Impossible Dream — Richard Kiley

To fight for the right

Without question or pause

To be willing to march, march into Hell

For that Heavenly cause

A song that became popular because of the musical “Man of La Mancha.”  The musical was based on the story by Cervantes “Don Quixote.”  Outside of the Bible this might just be the most popular novel ever written.  It is the story of an old man who believed in justice and righteousness and set about a task to rid the world of evil.  A man who despite his age was going to do all that he could in his remaining years to set the world right.

  1. I Got Plenty O’ Nuttin — Willard White

Folks with plenty of nothing

They’ve got a lock on the door

Afraid somebody’s going to rob ’em

While they is out making more

What for?

This song is from the Gershwin Musical “Porgy and Bess.”  It speaks to the virtue of having nothing and being satisfied with that.  Being satisfied with love, song, and heaven.  Not striving for the things in life that will never bring happiness but only worry and misery.  I think it speaks to all of us who conditioned by Madison avenue want more and more until we die buried under all the stuff that we have spent our precious time accruing.

  1. The Toreador Song — Dimitri Hvorostovsky

Because it is a celebration of courage!

It is the celebration of people with heart!

Let’s go, on guard! Let’s go! Let’s go! Ah!

Toreador, on guard! Toreador, Toreador!

And dream away, yes, dream in combat

From the famous opera Carmen by Bizet.  The story of a soldier who sacrifices his life and career for the love of a frivolous but uber sexy woman.  Carmen seduces Don Jose but ultimately leaves him for the fascinating and heroic Toreador Escamillo.  Escamillo sings of what it is like to face death in the bull ring.  His message is a message of courage for all of us.  It harkens us to put aside our infatuation with life and take the kind of risks that make life worth living.  To live without the risk of death is not to live at all.

  1. Where Have All the Flowers Gone? — Pete Seeger

Where have all the young girls gone?

Long time passing

Where have all the young girls gone?

Long time ago

Where have all the young girls gone?

Taken husbands every one

When will they ever learn?

When will they ever learn?

Pete Seeger is one of the greatest troubadours of all time.  His career in singing and protesting injustice throughout the world lasted nearly eighty years.  It was a loss for the world when he passed away in 2014 at the age of 94.  Pete sang about racism, sexism, militarism and even a song about the brutality of boxing.  He sang about narrow minded people that cared little or nothing about the world around them.  In this song, he mourns for the soldiers that are caught up in the myopia of war.  A new war every day bespeaking the “racket” that General Smedley Butler declared war to be.  Don’t look for a “just” war.  There are no just wars.  Every war is an example of greed, stupidity, or shortsightedness.  Pete knew this well and dedicated his life to singing the truth about war and man’s inhumanity to man.

  1. Kol Nidrei — Angela Buchdahl

Prohibitions, oaths, consecrations, vows that we may vow, swear, consecrate, or prohibit upon ourselves –

from this Yom Kippur until the next Yom Kippuer, may it come upon us for good –

regarding them all, we regret them henceforth.

They will all be permitted, abandoned, cancelled, null and void, without power and without standing.

Our vows shall not be valid vows; our prohibitions shall not be valid prohibitions;

and our oaths shall not be valid oaths

Even if I were Jewish, this is a very complex song to explain or interpret.  I have looked at several interpretations of the words concerning vows and oaths taken.  The major issues are what oaths and promises can be legitimately taken and expected to be followed and what oaths and promises can be forgiven.  The distinctions between these two issues have created a great many controversies over the years.  Some even claim that it was a Jewish way to get out of loans or money borrowed.  This would lead to prejudice and misunderstanding on the part of non-Jews.

What I am impressed with by the song is the idea that we can be forgiven for oaths and vows that perhaps we should never have taken.  We can all swear to things that we later regret.  The idea of a day of forgiveness for these mistakes is very appealing to me.  The relationship between Yom Kippur, the Jewish Holy Day of Atonement and the Kol Nidre is interesting.  Yom Kippur begins in the evening, and the evening prayer (Maariv) is preceded by the special Kol Nidre prayer.  I think this points to a strong bond between atonement and forgiveness both in terms of sin and in terms of vows and oaths that were taken.   In any case, it is also a beautiful song to listen to.

  1. Motherless Child — Richie Havens

Sometimes I feel like a motherless child

Sometimes I feel like a motherless child

Sometimes I feel like a motherless child

A long way from home

A long way from home

When I first heard this song on the Woodstock Festival album, I thought he made it for me.  Somehow, for most of my life, I have felt like a motherless child.  This is strange since I had a mom.  Everyone described her as a saint.  She was never mean or abusive to me.  I remember during a counseling session confessing that I felt less when my mom died than I did when my father died.  He was a mean abusive man who made my life hell.  I dreamed of killing him but never got up the nerve to do it.

But why did I mourn my father’s death more than my mom’s.  My counselor recommended I read “Drama of the Gifted Child.”  She explained that a mother’s role is to protect her children and clearly my mom did not.  I never blamed her because I felt that she was living in her own hell with my father.  Nevertheless, I felt more like I never had a mom.  Hearing Richie Havens’ song, I felt like someone understood.

  1. The Bluebird of Happiness — Jan Peerce

When you find the bluebird of happiness

You will find perfect peace of mind

Knowing there’s a bluebird of happiness

And when he sings to you

Though you’re deep in blue

You will see a ray of light creep through

And so remember this, life is no abyss

Somewhere there’s a bluebird of happiness

Growing up with a father who loved opera, I was bound to hear Jan Peerce sing many of his repertoire.  He sang many wonderful songs.  However, this was my favorite.  I guess you could almost say that this song was pop, but it would never be recognized as such by today’s kids.  The “Bluebird of Happiness” spoke to my desire for peace of mind.  I had only to find the bluebird and all my sorrows and fears, and unhappiness would vanish.  I searched many years for this strange bird.  I have not found it yet but perhaps I am closer than ever before.

  1. The Peat Bog Soldiers — Paul Robeson

Up and down the guards are marching,

No one, no one can get through.

Flight would mean a sure death facing,

Guns and barbed wire block our view

But for us there is no complaining,

Winter will in time be past.

One day we shall rise rejoicing.

Homeland, dear, you’re mine at last.

No more the peat bog soldiers (Die Moorsoldaten)

Will march with our spades to the moor.

No more the peat bog soldiers

Will march with our spades to the moor.

I first heard this song by the fabulous Paul Robeson.  I was astounded.  He is so versatile.  He spoke out for liberty and justice no matter what language his songs were in.  Parts of this song are in English and parts in German.  Paul sounds like a native German speaker.  I looked up the history of this song and found that it was one of the most popular protest songs of all time in Europe.  It tells of the men in a concentration camp getting marched off each morning to work harvesting peat in the peat bogs.

This song was written by prisoners in Nazi labor camps in Lower Saxony, Germany.  With their shovels and pails, they euphemistically refer to themselves as “The Peat Bog Soldiers.”  These camps were established as soon as the Nazis gained power as a place to put their political enemies.  Many of not most of the men and women in these camps would die.  Nevertheless, they remained hopeful that someday Hitler’s reign would end, and they could march home in rejoicing.  Can we remain as hopeful in the crisis facing us today?  I ask myself that each morning when I wake up.

  1. Guantanamera — Joseito Fernandez

I am a truthful man from the land of the palm trees

Before dying I want to share these poems of my soul

My verses are a clear green, and they are a flaming crimson

I grow the white rose in June as in January

For the sincere friend who gives me his hand

And for the cruel one who would tear out my heart with which I live

I do not cultivate thistles nor nettles I cultivate a white rose

Guantanamera, guajira, Guantanamera

This song is one of the most popular songs of all time.  Few people would not recognize the tune and lyrics.  Not only has it been sung by hundreds of singers all over the world, but it has been featured in movies and other venues.  For instance: “The song is played in The Godfather Part II, at the café in Havana where Michael Corleone talks with his brother Fredo Corleone.  Richard Stallman wrote and sang a version titled Guantanamero, a commentary on the Guantanamo prison and the War on Terror.” — Wikipedia

Over the years, what started as a love song has evolved into a song about freedom and justice.  A song supporting class equality and freedom for the poor.  To me it also signifies seeking co-existence with our enemies as well as with our friends.  Besides the moral significance, it is hauntingly beautiful.  Parts of it are sung in Spanish and parts in English depending on the singer.

Well, there you have my top ten favorite inspirational songs.  I would love to hear what your favorite songs are as well.  Feel free to leave comments, lyrics, tunes or whatever you like.  Just be sure to let us know what Key you want us to sing it in.  😊

 

 

 

 

 

Only the Old Understand Aging

images (1)There are going to be those of you who will say that the title of this blog is preposterous.  A few years ago, I would have called “Bullshit.”  Funny how aging changes ones perspective.  I asked four friends all over the age of 70 what they thought about my proposition.  They all nodded sagely and said that they agreed 100 percent.  I then went to my spouse Karen who as a Home Care nurse spent many years working with the elderly.  I expected her to deny my proposition.  I was quite surprised when she also agreed.  I asked her why.  She explained as follows:

“I spent forty years working as a home health care nurse.  Most of my patients were elderly.  I think I helped many of them lead better lives.  However, when I look back, I can see that I did not really understand what they were going through with the aging process.  I only realized it when I had to go through it myself.”

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In January of this year, I decided to stop running the mountain trails that I had been running four or five times a week for the past 12 years.  I had fallen many times and six months earlier I had a fall and broke my finger.  I still ran for the next six months but suddenly I could just not bring myself to go up the mountains running anymore.  I experienced both pain and pleasure with this decision.  In some ways, it felt like a big weight had been lifted off my shoulders.  On the other hand, I missed the challenge and excitement of running rocky mountain trails.  I decided to stick to the flatlands and less rugged running trails.

old surferI mentioned this to some running friends of mine.  One of the younger ones asked me what I had done to prevent falling or to somehow adjust my attitude so that I could continue running.  I explained that over the years I had started running with knee pads, elbow pads, shatterproof glasses, and hand guards like roller bladers used.  I had the best trail running shoes that I could afford.  He asked if I would be willing to look for some new ideas so that I could return to the mountain trails.  I told him that I appreciated the offer but that I was finished with running rocky mountain trails.

Upon reflection, I realized that his attitude was like what many of us elderly experience from a wide range of sources.  From doctors to other “expert” advice givers, younger people assume that much of what afflicts the elderly is simply a state of mind.  How often have you heard any of the following”

  • You are only as old as you think you are.
  • Aging is an attitude.
  • Age is just a number. Life and aging are the greatest gifts that we could possibly ever have.
  • Aging is just another word for living.
  • Aging is an extraordinary process where you become the person you always should have been.
  • As soon as you feel too old to do a thing, DO IT.
  • Nobody grows old merely by living a number of years.

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The above quotes may be inspiring.  They may be motivating.  They may sound profound.  However, there is an element of denial in each of them.  A little like the quote “When the going gets tough, the tough get going.”  Something missing is the element of empathy.  We may not all be tough.  We may have lived a wonderful and useful life.  However, like a beautiful flower we all reach the end of our journey in this world.  Many of us may reach this end without ever really knowing “What kind of a person we should have been.”  We may be too sick, too fragile or simply too old to “Just do it.” 

We are told that we can stave off aging by yoga, senior fit exercises, strength exercises, cardio exercises, good diet, and nutrition.  We should give up smoking, overeating, and drinking.  All these suggestions are useful to some extent.  However, none of them will stop the aging process.  Aging is a process by which the body gradually loses its energy.  The cycle of life is birth, growth, and decline.  No species of animal or plant that ever graced this earth has escaped this cycle.  For some of us the cycle is shorter than for others.  Inspiring motivational quotes will not help you to avoid this cycle.  Nor will the many over the counter remedies for aging.  I did find this advertisement for five ways to look younger which exemplifies what my message here is.  I am dubious of the “modern solutions” that they suggest to combat aging.

“With the right solutions and strategies, we can lessen these signs (of aging) and stay looking our youthful best for longer.  Here, we’ll explore five key challenges men face as they age and the modern solutions available to help combat them.  — 5 Things That Make Men Look Old And What You Can Do To Look 10 Years Younger

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Aging is not combat.  There is a reconciliation that must inevitably come for all of us.  I once thought this was something to be avoided.  I now realize that only by embracing the inevitable can we live our last years on this earth with a sublime equanimity that would make Buddha proud.  We are going to age.  We are going to decline.  We will eventually succumb to death.  We can live our life to the fullest with a paradox that we must accept.  The paradox is that we should never give up, but we should also be prepared to let go.  The two processes are never black and white.  We need to hold on as long as we can, but we also need to gradually let go.  Life has always been a trial of balancing complex and competing priorities.  Aging presents us with one last trial.  You can go raging into the night if you like, but I would prefer to walk steadily towards whatever awaits me after this life is over.

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For some very poignant and moving pictures about aging, I have found none better than those by Tom Hussey. The following link will take you to some of his pictures. They will touch your heart.

https://tomhussey.com/STORIES/REFLECTIONS/16

Thinking About Our Priorities

I wrote this blog 14 years ago and it is part of my Reflections on Time which I eventually self-published as The “Sigh of Time” on Amazon.  366 Daily Reflections to help you think about the important role that time plays in your life.  Each reflection include questions to help you think about the issue. 

Looking back this one sounds a little preachy but I still think it has some merit.  Hope you enjoy it 

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Writing the Big Lie

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The eighth circle of Hell in Dante’s Inferno is for the sin of fraud. Generally, this includes counterfeiting, hypocrisy, lying, stealing, and more.

 What is the punishment in circle 8?

Circle 8 of Hell in Dante’s Inferno has ten different areas for fraudsters. Dante describes these as separate ditches or trenches within the circle. In the first ditch, demons whip pimps and seducers. In the second, flatterers are buried in sewage and feces. In the third, “simonists” – those who abuse church power – are buried upside down and their feet are burned. In the fourth, sorcerers or fortune tellers are forced to walk around with their heads on backwards. In the fifth, the politically corrupt are buried in boiling tar. In the sixth, religious hypocrites are forced to wear torturously heavy church robes. In the seventh, snakes bind thieves’ hands behind their backs and torture them in various other ways. In the eighth, those who lied for personal gain are turned into living flames. In the ninth, people who sowed division walk in a circle. When they pass a certain demon, it chops their head or limbs off – their wounds slowly heal as they walk around again, and the demon chops them again when they come back around. In the tenth and final ditch, counterfeiters are punished with various afflictions like scabies, itching, or thirst.  —- From Study.Com by Angie Armendariz, Arielle Windham, and Jenna Clayton.                         

Christians believe that everyone is a sinner.  That is why every week at a Christian church you will hear an aisle full of practitioners asking forgiveness for their sins.  The times I accompany my spouse to church, I am reluctant to confess any sins or to ask for any forgiveness.  I can’t help but wonder what I should ask forgiveness for.  Many the day I regret something I have said or done but seldom do I think this makes me a sinner.  When they say that Christ died for my sins, I wonder how he could have known the stupid and sometimes malicious things I actually have done?  Perhaps this is an example of a Big Lie.

Writers all lie.  Some more than others.  There are lies of omission.  There are lies of commission.  There is hyperbole.  There is obfuscation.  Writers of course are not the only ones who lie.  The government lies.  The army lies.  The CIA lies.  Even your parents probably lied to you more than you think.  Sometimes we lie to get our point across.  Sometimes we lie to protect another.  Sometimes we lie to protect ourselves.  Sometimes we lie because of erroneous beliefs, common but false tropes, misinformation, and disinformation.

The media today is one big melting pot of lies.  CNN, MSNBC, FOX News, Breitbart and all the other major networks are cesspools of daily lies.  Left wing, right wing, Democrats, Independents, Republicans, John Birchers all lie.  Studies show that average people also lie fairly regularly.  “Do as I say and not as I do” is one form of lying.  The biggest lies we engage in are lies to ourselves.  Self-talk is full of lies.  “I would never do that.”  “I get better every day.”  “I get enough exercise.”  “I am a follower of Jesus Christ.”  Some studies such as noted below show that the assumption that most people are liars is not exactly true.  Many people are opportunistic liars.

“People also have good and bad lie days, when they tell more or fewer lies than is typical for them, Levine says.  People do not lie for the most part, he says, a few pathological liars aside. Also, for the most part, people do not lie unless they have a reason to.  Our daily communication demands are a big driver for most of us on how honest or dishonest we are,” Levine said.New research shows most people are honestby Shannon Thomason

On the subject of writers as liars, I include advertisers, marketers, political speech writers, media script writers and even blog writers.  We are all guilty of Big Lies.  The following quote is attributed to the Nazis Joseph Goebbels, but it was also written in Hitler’s Mein Kampf:

“If you tell a lie big enough and keep repeating it, people will eventually come to believe it. The lie can be maintained only for such time as the State can shield the people from the political, economic and/or military consequences of the lie. It thus becomes vitally important for the State to use all of its powers to repress dissent, for the truth is the mortal enemy of the lie, and thus by extension, the truth is the greatest enemy of the State.”

Upon reading the above quote, it might give you some pause when it comes to believing anything that comes out of the mouth of a press secretary or any other official State representative.  To repeat “The Truth is the greatest enemy of the State.” My father once said, “Believe nothing of what you hear and half of what you see.”  This might have been the best advice that I have ever received.  This is why all teachers today say that they believe Critical Thinking skills are the most important tools we can teach students.  Unfortunately, this is also a Big Lie.  It is something that might be believed but it is not practiced.

I call a Big Lie something that is truly and wonderfully believed either by the writer or speaker.  Unfortunately, they may not adhere to it in practice or in their daily lives.  They talk and write a good game, but they do not deliver.  As Martin Luther King said about the “Declaration of Independence”,

“When the architects of our republic wrote the magnificent words of the Constitution and the Declaration of Independence, they were signing a promissory note to which every American was to fall heir. This note was a promise that all men — yes, Black men as well as White men — would be guaranteed the unalienable rights of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.  It is obvious today that America has defaulted on this promissory note insofar as her citizens of color are concerned. Instead of honoring this sacred obligation, America has given the Negro people a bad check, a check which has come back marked insufficient funds.”

9780996883252_p0_v1_s1200x630Our Founding Fathers wrote a Big Lie and African Americans have been paying for it ever since.  Women and other minorities were not even mentioned in the Big Lie, but it applied to them as well.  Lies can be committed because people believe things that do not mesh with reality.  Lies are a coverup for many government actions that our politicians do not see as palatable for the public.  The Gulf of Tonkin incident, the overthrow of Salvador Allende, the weapons of mass destruction in Iraq are only a few of the lies that have been fed to the American people.  Of course, our politicians would have us believe it is for our own good.  The really sad part is that the media is always complicit in these lies by reporting them with little or no verification of their truthfulness.  Some of these lies fall into what I call the “Realm of Taboos.”  Taboos are a good place to look for Big Lies.

A Taboo is defined by the Online Oxford dictionary as, “A social or religious custom prohibiting or forbidding discussion of a particular practice or forbidding association with a particular person, place, or thing.”  Taboos arise when reality clashes with Big Lies.   For instance, it is a Big Lie to think that Americans always fight a virtuous war.  Our government wants us to believe that any war we fight is to protect the right to Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness.  It would not do any good to let the public know that most of our wars have been wars of aggrandizement.  Wars fought to protect our economic interests.  Thus, we develop Taboos that prohibit subjects from being discussed.  This saves government and politicians from being exposed as Big Liars.

One particularly egregious lie is that someone is never too old to hold public office.  We have a plethora of “old” politicians and judges who would be better retired.  The average age of senators in the 118th Congress is 64 years old.  There are 54 senators older than 65.  I am 77 years old in two weeks and my days have dwindled down to about four to five ENERGY hours per day.  The rest of my day is spent napping, reading, watching TV, or just enjoying a good Bourbon.  Many of the politicians holding office probably cannot say that they could do any better than I could.  But no one has yet disputed their right to run for office.

“American society on the whole fears aging. It is a culture that works overtime to stave off death, even while having one of the lowest life expectancies in the world compared to the amount spent on health care every year. It is considered taboo to bring up age in a variety of contexts, including whether or not someone is still hardy enough for the rigors of public service after more than eight decades on the planet.” — Aug. 31, 2023, by Hayes Brown, MSNBC Opinion Writer/Editor

imagesSo, we tell a Big Lie that age does not matter.  And we have no one willing to challenge that lie.  However, it is not only physical aging that puts people at a disadvantage, but mental aging as well.  Many older people are stuck in a past generation of ideas and values that are no longer relevant today.  Values and cultures change over time and people born in the 40’s and 50’s are less likely to understand and adapt to the changes that daily life brings.  If you can only see the “Good Old Days”, you may be suffering from old age.  The average age of Nobel Prize winners when they conducted their prize-winning research is 44.1 years.  As for writing, “According to experts, we start becoming more creative and prolific in whatever field of art or study we work, around the age of 25.  Most people reach their peak after the age of 35 or in their 40s. This is when they produce their most valuable work.  After the age of 45, most artists’ prolificity starts slowly declining.” — The Adroit Journal

Conclusions:

  • Big Lies are part of reality.
  • People often do not want to know the truth.
  • Politicians believe that people cannot handle the truth.
  • Big Lies are told to conceal realities that will adversely impact governments.
  • We all lie sometimes. Some of us more than others.
  • Writers have a responsibility to tell the truth as much as possible.
  • We cannot always see the culture of lies that we are caught in.
  • Follow my father’s advice: “Believe nothing of what you hear and half of what you see.”
  • When you do not believe something, gain insights from 360 Degree Thinking.

360 Degree Thinking can be defined as, “being cognizant of ideas and insights coming from a variety of sources, both internally and externally, and understanding the critical interconnectedness of these ideas.” It is about your ability to view ideas and information coming from all sides and on all levels in all timeframes (for example, short, medium and long-term priorities).   —- Ideas for Action

Friends and Friendships: Part 1

I wrote this about ten years ago. I still think it is relevant and a good review of friendship. It is in two parts. Happy reading. Please leave a comment.

The Great Presidential Debate – Part 1

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Emcee: 

We are here tonight for the 17th of the 20 Presidential debates.  After the first sixteen debates, 10 of the candidates dropped out leaving only three remaining candidates.  For tonight’s debate we have Senator Tweedle Dee former Senator from Iowa, Governor Tweedle Dumb from Virginia and CEO Tweedle Dumber, a billionairess who has risen rapidly in the polls.

There are three moderators for tonight’s debate.  Angelica Cutesy from Fox News, Whiney Adams from CNN, and Gotcha by the Balls from MSNBC.  There will be three questions for the candidates from five different subject areas.  The areas will include climate change, the economy, abortion, gun rights and schools.  Each moderator will select one question in each subject area from a pool that was compiled by voters.  Candidates will each have an opportunity to answer the questions.  We will start with climate change.  Angelica will select the first question.

Climate Change:

Angelica Cutesy:  For the first question, I would like to ask Senator Tweedle Dee what he would do about climate change?

Senator Tweedle Dee: (softly singing)

Thus be it ever, when freemen shall stand

Between their loved homes and the war’s desolation!

Blest with vict’ry and peace, may the heav’n rescued land

Praise the Pow’r that has made and preserved us a nation.

Angelica Cutesy:  Isn’t that the second refrain from the “Star Spangled Banner” Senator and how will that help climate change Senator.

Senator Tweedle Dee:   It’s clear that Americans are patriotic and if we all work together, we can solve climate change.

Governor Tweedle Dum:  I support my opponent’s position on climate change 100 percent.  Everyone in my state knows that I have done a great job to help keep things cooler in Virginia.  I signed a bill authorizing payment of over $10,000.000 dollars to start up companies to help make more affordable air conditioning units.  Most of the US Senators are now running air conditioners built in Virginia factories.

Whiney Adams:  My question is addressed to CEO Tweedle Dumber.  CEO Dumber, how would you go about dealing with some of the tragic aftermaths of climate disruptions that seem to be epidemic in the world today?

CEO Tweetle Dumber:  That’s a good question Whiney.  I think the answer is simple.  As Margaret Thatcher said, “Any woman who understands the problems of running a home will be nearer to understanding the problems of running a country.”  I not only run a home with a husband and three kids, I run a billion dollar a year business.  I think that shows how qualified I am to solve the climate problems in this country.  It is a simple matter of putting the bread on the table which I have demonstrated I can do.

Governor Tweedle Dumb:  Well, a “stitch in time saves nine” CEO Dumber and you have never done any stitching in Government.

Senator Tweedel Dee:  That’s right.  It is one thing to run a business that has to be profitable, its another thing to run a government agency.

 Gotcha by the Balls:  Well, I get the third and last question in this category and my name isn’t Gotcha by the Balls for nothing.  Many Americans are concerned that water temperatures are rising, and it will be harder to get a good suntan at the beach if you can’t cool off in the ocean.  If you are elected President, what will you do about it.  I would like to have each of you answer this question.

Governor Tweedle Dumb:  Coming from the great state of Virginia I have repeatedly talked about this problem.  I formed a team of advisers to discuss what could be done to help cool off the ocean waters.  One of the best suggestions we had is something we are now working on.  We are developing feasibility studies to test how large an iceberg and how many icebergs we would need to cool our waters off during the summer beach season.

CEO Tweetle Dumber:  I propose that we need more sun shelters on our beaches.  I would sponsor a reality show contest to bring more projects to fruition for new and innovative beach umbrellas.

Whiney Adams:  And how would these projects be paid for?

CEO Tweedle Dumber:  We would put containers that look like surfboards for voluntary contributions wherever we have a state lottery or scratch offs.  My advisors estimate that we would easily get at least one million dollars a year in contributions.

Senator Tweedle Dee:  But your idea CEO Dumber only puts the burden on the poorest people in your state.  The ones who can least afford it and who might not be interested in getting a good beach tan.  Liberal ideas like yours are what is ruining this country.

Emcee:  We will now move on to our second subject matter area, the economy.  Mr. Whiney Adams from CNN will start us off with the first question.

The Economy:

Whiney Adams:  I would like to address the first question on the economy to Governor Tweedle Dumb.  Governor, how would you help make America more competitive, bring jobs back to our shores, give people a living wage and eliminate inflation without raising taxes?

Governor Tweedle Dumb:  That’s a very good question Whiney and I think I am the only one running who is really qualified to answer that question.  As Governor I had to manage a state budget and many or at least a lot of state employees.  Let me tell you, it was not always an easy job.  We have a saying in Virginia that “You buy cheap and weep.”  We would never want to go cheap and have our citizens weeping.  If I am elected as your president, I promise to never cheap out on what we need to do to keep America great. This is the greatest nation that ever existed on this earth, and I am proud to be an American, God bless the USA.

The Audience gives a standing ovation for the Governor

Whiney Adams:  Great answer Governor.  What do you think Senator Tweedle Dee and CEO Dumber?

Senator Tweedle Dee:  Well, I think the Governor exaggerates quote a bit.  If I remember an old phrase, it’s something like “Well, you ain’t no John Kennedy, Governor.”

CEO Tweetle Dumber:  I’m a billionaire. I’ve managed and made more budgets than Governor Tweedle Dumb can probably count.  My companies have run on time and made profits that would be the envy of any state government.  In my companies, all of my managers know how to count.

Angelica Cutesy:  For the second question on the economy, I would like to know how each of the candidates would deal with the rising threat from the Chinese?  CEO Tweetle Dumber, you get to answer first.

CEO Tweetle Dumber:  I would never have let the Chinese Spy balloon cross over into our economic airspace.  This Biden government gives the Chinese too much leeway.  I would start off by firing the Chinese Prime Minister and all of his economic advisers.  Then I would make the Chinese send back most of the jobs that they have stolen from us.  If they would not do this, I would cut off loans and economic aid to the Chinese government.  In addition, I would ban the purchase of T-Shirts made in China in the USA.

Another Standing Ovation and Rousing Applause from the Audience

Gotcha by the Balls:  Hold on a minute there Partner.  Some of those ideas will never fly.  You can’t ban T-shirts made in China.  Where would Nike, Harley Davidson, Budweiser Beer, and Elon Musk get their T-shirts?

CEO Tweetle Dumber:  Well, I would allow an exemption for certain companies to insure that the law does not negatively impact some of our great companies.

Senator Tweedle Dee:  CEO Dumber’s ideas seem like flagrant favoritism.  As a 100 percent dyed in the wool American, I am dead set against favoritism.  “We need to stop planting flowers in people’s yards who are not going to water them.”

Governor Tweedle Dumb:  I always water my own flowers.  I don’t care where we water our flowers as long as it is not in China.

Not Quite a Standing Ovation but Rousing Applause from most of the Audience

Gotcha by the Balls:  I guess I get the final question on the economy.  Not much left to discuss in terms of the economy but I am going to try to punch for the BALLS.  My question concerns the tax filings for each of the candidates.  Governor Tweedle Dumb, you reported earnings of only five thousand dollars in the past five years.  Senator Tweedle Dee, you reported earnings of only one thousand dollars in the past five years.  CEO Tweedle Dumber, you reported negative earnings for the past ten years.  Can each of you explain how you were able to live on such meager earnings.  Governor Tweedle Dumb, you get to go first.

Governor Tweedle Dumb:  “Gotcha”, that is a great question, and I am glad that you asked it.  You know when I was growing up my family believed in hard work and frugality.  I grew up on a little farm in Wisconsin and every day before walking five miles to school I had to milk our cows.  I learned the meaning of thrift and respect for the common laborer.  If I am elected, I will do everything I can to help make sure that no children have to walk five miles to school after milking their cows.

Senator Tweedle Dee:  I am going to jump right in on this question. I also think it is a great question.  I want my constituents to know, and I think that most of them do, that I never rest.  I am looking out for their interests every minute I am on the job.  We live in the greatest nation on the face of the earth.  When our forefathers founded this country, they wanted to insure that every American had the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.  If I am elected, I will do my best to guarantee that every red-blooded loyal patriotic American has these rights. You know, I wish I had somebody to help me sing this

America, America, God shed his grace on thee

America, I love you America, you see

My God he done shed his grace on thee

And you oughta love him for it.

Angelica Cutesy:  Stands up and applauds loudly.  “Wonderful job Senator.  You have my vote.”

Whiney Adams:  Hold on there Angelica, we are not supposed to be endorsing any candidates

Angelica Cutesy:  Sorry, I just lost it for a minute.

Gotcha by the Balls:  Lets get back to the question Ok.  We still have not heard from CEO Tweedle Dumber.  CEO Dumber, how do you explain your negative tax returns when you are a billionairess?

CEO Tweedle Dumber:  Its not easy being rich.  You have people on all sides who want something from you.  I give to charities on one side, schools on another side.  Not a day goes by when I am not giving money away.  My boats, planes and cars cost me an arm and a leg.  My alimony for my ex-wives would bankrupt most Americans.  Truth be told, even though I am a billionairess, I can hardly afford a Starbuck’s Carmel Macchiato Latte Almond Cream coffee every day.  I have two accountants just to pay my bills. Many the day when I wish I was only a millionairess again.

Angelica Cutesy:  Very sorry CEO Dumber, I wish we could help you out.  Maybe someone in the audience could start a Go Fund site to help you out with the Starbucks Coffee

CEO Tweedle Dumber:  Such a nice offer Angelica, as we say in my business, we get BUY with other people’s money.

Emcee:   Well folks, so far, it’s been a great debate.  Many questions and issues addressed but we still have more issues to deal with.  Right now, we are going to take a break and let everyone catch a breath.  We will be back soon with Part 2 of our debate dealing with the remaining three issues:  abortion, gun rights and schools

Stay tuned Bloggers.  Part 2 will be out soon.

The Four Most Important Searches in Our Lives — The Search for True Love

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I doubt that a person ever existed who did not want love.  Love is older than the Greek gods, older than the Bible, older than the universe.  Everyone knows what love is and no one knows what love is.  Everyone wants love but few really know how to give love.  Love may be the most frequently used word in any language.   It is also probably the most frequently misused word in any language.  We search for love and many of us will never find it.  Some of us will find it at a very old age and some will find it while very young.  No amount of arguing will ever stop anyone from searching for love.

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I could say that I am cynical on love and that would probably surprise no one who knows me.  However, I do not believe that I am a true skeptic on love.  Many ideas exist but are in the mind of the beholder.  I think love does exist, but love like quality is also in the mind of the beholder.  In quality improvement, we always argued that each person has a different definition of what quality is and what they would define as a quality product.  Love has same common elements that we all believe in but there are aspects of love that are unique to each of us.

download (4)Love is a word used in many semantic constructions.  People associate love with sex, marriage, partnership, and other types of relationships between human beings.  It is also common for the word love to be associated with inanimate objects and other animals.  For instance, people say “I love my car” or “I love my dog.”  These uses of the word trivialize the meaning of love.  Romantic novels (think Romeo and Juliet) portray love as undying or “dying” passion but seldom show the hard work required to keep love burning.  TV and movies feature continuous images of love based more on lust rather than what real love is.  Even Jesus the greatest prophet of love did not get the idea of love right.

download (1)Jesus gave one example of “true love” but missed the most significant example in his life.  Jesus said, “Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.” — John 15:13.  Many soldiers have given up their lives to save others in the course of war.  Often these soldiers were friends with the men they died for.  However, to say that they loved them is quite off the mark.  A number of years ago, I dove into a river to save a guy who was being dragged down the St. Croix River by its current.  He did not know how to get out of the current and was fighting it instead of going with it.  I swam out and brought him to shore.  He was very grateful.  I risked my life for this man.  I did not know this man and I certainly did not love him.  Many acts of heroism have been done by people out of a sense of responsibility or compassion, but I would not call these “acts of love.”

download (5)I propose that the greatest acts of love are to stand by someone when the world is bent on destroying them and you risk being destroyed along with them.  The love of a mother for a son convicted of a heinous crime is one of these acts.  Jesus’s mother Mary stood by the cross and watched her son die, never deserting his side.  I am sure she suffered insults and criticisms and was blamed for his behavior.  A mother who will feel love for her son or daughter no matter how grievous the crimes they have done is committing an act of love.

download (3)A few months ago, the news carried a story about a young man who had been in and out of trouble.  He went into a dinner with a gun, robbed several patrons and was shot in the back as he was leaving.  No charges were brought on the shooter.  As it turned out the gun that he used in the robbery was a water pistol.  The mother was questioned as to her thoughts.  She did not attack her son’s killer, nor did she defend her son’s behavior.  She did wonder if he really needed to be shot in the back as he was leaving.  I was struck by the mother’s sadness and love for her son.  It did not matter that he was a bad kid or that the whole of the media was gleeful about his being shot in the act; his mom’s (like Mary’s) love remained firm.

In my mind, acts like Mary’s and the unknown woman I described are true acts of love.  You will notice that in such cases, love is more than just a word.  It is a series of actions that we associate with the word.  I think it is the actions that help to define the word.  Like the Velveteen Rabbit became real because Christopher Robbins loved it.  Love takes time and does not happen overnight:

“Weeks passed, and the little Rabbit grew very old and shabby, but the Boy loved him just as much. He loved him so hard that he loved all his whiskers off, and the pink lining to his ears turned grey, and his brown spots faded. He even began to lose his shape, and he scarcely looked like a rabbit anymore, except to the Boy. To him he was always beautiful, and that was all that the little Rabbit cared about. He didn’t mind how he looked to other people, because the nursery magic had made him Real, and when you are Real shabbiness doesn’t matter.”  — From the Velveteen Rabbit by  Margery Williams

downloadOne of the most common tropes in movies and shows concern what I call the “Two Ships Passing in the Night Love Model.”  Individuals who seem to resonate with each other go about their daily business and never tell the other person how they feel.  This has been a part of so many shows that I have watched that I am losing count.  You sit there and wonder episode after episode if they will ever say anything before it is too late.  It is frustrating as you want them to get together and say, “I love you.”

“Dear children, let us not love with words or speech but with actions and in truth.” —  1 John 3:18

imagesI thought about this problem for a while.  Many would say it was just a writer’s trick to get you to keep coming back for the next episode.  You get hooked on whether or not they will ever consummate their love either physically or emotionally.  It is a rather good hook but the more I thought about it, the more I realized that it was really art mimicking life.  I have been guilty of the same behavior and many people I know have also been guilty of the same behavior.  We fail to say I love you when it counts the most.  We can say that we love our new shoes or that we love our cat easily enough, but we have a hard time telling friends and relatives that we love them.  We often abbreviate the sentiment with “Love you” or we use the term generically.  “See you later folks, love all of you.”  The simple act of looking someone in the eyes and saying “I love you” is perhaps one of the most difficult tasks that many of us face.

download (2)But what is true love anyway?   Is loving a person in the same ballpark as loving your dog or your new shoes?  Would you give up your life for your cat or your shoes?  There are many elements that are part of true Love.  A life without true love is rather sad but more common than many people realize.  How many people do you know who took marriage vows only to divorce within ten years or less?  How many of these people were willing to go to a marriage counselor before they divorced?  How many of them just gave up on the other person before giving them a chance to change or giving themselves a chance to change?   My elements of true love include:

  • Facing hard times together
  • Fighting constructively and making up
  • Loyalty to the other person
  • Honoring your commitments to each other
  • Saying “I Love You” often
  • Forgiving each other verbally and often
  • Being willing to sacrifice for the other person
  • Thinking of the other person before you think of yourself
  • Sharing passion, happiness, sadness, and death together

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I am sure that I have missed some important elements of True Love.  Please feel free to add any you can think of in my comments section.

Remember, you really cannot find “True Love.”  So don’t bother searching for it.  You have to create it.   

 

The Four Most Important Searches in Our Lives — The Search for Authenticity

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Authenticity is being true to yourself.  It is being who you really are versus who others want you to be.  It is being true to a set of values, morals or principles that define a good life.  It is defining oneself and not letting others define you.  “In existentialism, authenticity is the degree to which a person’s actions are congruent with their values and desires, despite external pressures to social conformity.”Wikipedia

What do you want your life to be like?  What will you stand up for?  What is worth living for and dying for?  These questions frame a Search for Authenticity which will continue our entire lives.  It is not that we never find authenticity, it is that as our roles change in life, the meaning of authenticity will change.  We must continually redefine ourselves in terms of being authentic.

It will not matter whether you are rich or poor, whether you are educated or uneducated.  It will not matter who you know or what you know.   Authenticity comes from the heart and soul and not from the brain.  You cannot buy authenticity.  You cannot acquire authenticity by fame or fortune.  Knowing celebrities and being a celebrity are no guarantees of authenticity.  You cannot go to school and get a degree in authenticity.  Think for a minute.  Who is the most authentic person you know?  What makes them authentic?

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Two things have escaped me in my life.  When I was young, I wanted to be rich and famous.  Often, I still dream of it.  Not an unusual desire given American values.  Over the years, I have read many books about famous people.  I have read most of the great philosophers.  I studied a Harvard Business course on the histories of the richest entrepreneurs like Getty, Rockefeller, Carnegie, and Mellon.  These were the predecessors of Gate, Musk, and Buffett.  The results would show that I am nowhere near successful in my twin goals.  Neither fortune nor fame has cast its shadow over my life.  Perhaps I am blessed because of this.  Knowing how immature and ungrateful that I have often been, either the money or fame would have been squandered or it would have destroyed me.

Today, I am happier than I have ever been.  I have more than some people and less than others.  I have good friends and a loving wife and sister.  My ex-relationship with my daughter is not wonderful but it is no longer on rocky grounds.  What does my life have to do with authenticity?  Why my story here?  Well, over the years I have pondered the reasons that my goals of fame and fortune were never attained.  My answer lies in what it means to be authentic.

I have never chosen money over knowledge.  Money has never been as important to me as learning and education.  I would sooner spend an afternoon in a library as in an office.  I have never chosen money over ethics.  My clients always knew that I would tell them the truth, even if it was not always tactfully done.  I never dreamed of getting ahead in business by developing a network of influential friends or meeting clients on the golf course.  In fact, I purposely never learned to play golf.  I wanted to be respected for what I knew and not who I knew.  This is a major mistake in the world of commerce.  When my boss at the consulting firm asked me where my list of contacts was for networking, I was befuddled.  I had to go back into his office and ask him to explain networking to me.

Being a rich successful businessperson was not in my genes.  I came to accept that fact over time.  The answer for how you get to Carnegie Hall is “Practice, practice, practice.”  I was never willing to take the time to be a businessperson.  I would rather do other things like travel and meet new people, see new places and explore new ideas.  I would not practice the skills needed to succeed in business.  I valued time more than money.

I also was not willing to take the risks needed to be an entrepreneur.  I remember reading a biography of the great African American entrepreneur John Johnson who founded Ebony Magazine.  When he needed money to meet a deadline for publishing an issue of Ebony, he pawned his mom’s furniture.  He had already invested his last cent in the business.  It would be interesting to know what his mom said when she came home and found her furniture gone.  I was never a risk taker when it came to money.  I still have never bought a lottery ticket.  I cannot imagine hocking my furniture much less my mom’s furniture.

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Being authentic means being true to who you are in spirit.  Integrity and authenticity go hand in hand.  Integrity is upholding those unique values and virtues that make you authentic.  Oxford Online dictionary defines integrity as: “the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles; moral uprightness.”  If you say that you value honesty, then you must practice honesty.  If you say that you value truth, then you must practice truthfulness.  If you say that you value democracy, then you must support democratic values and principles.  First though, you must ask yourself what it is that makes you alive?  What makes you human?  What is truly meaningful to you?  The answers to these questions will determine your integrity.  People with little or no integrity can be authentic.  There are authentically “bad” people.  However, I believe that authenticity must always be allied with good character development and that means authenticity must meld with integrity.  Unfortunately, it seems that sometimes the two do not find each other.

Today we are faced with a tsunami of public figures who seem to have no integrity.  Lawyers lie and spin devious schemes to protect their clients and themselves.  Politicians take oaths and contributions from PACs which ensure that they will ignore the will of the majority.  Sports figures use their influence to take advantage of others.  Celebrities have no qualms about ethics and will do anything to continue their celebrity status.  So called journalists are more interested in advertising revenue than in the veracity or merits of any news.

Being authentic only has merit if you also have integrity.  Father Stokhal of Demontreville used to say that if you do bad actions, you can tell yourself all day long that you are a good person, but you will never be good until you stop the bad actions.  If you have grievous character defects such as lying and cheating others, being true to yourself has no merits or value to the world.  Jesus said that if the salt loses its flavor, what good is it.  Socrates believed that the ultimate goal of human existence was not just to live but to live a good, meaningful, and virtuous life.  A good life was guided by virtue and moral principles.  Being authentic means to find the virtues and morals that will help you to lead a good life.  Integrity is sticking to those virtues and morals that you believe in through thick and thin.  You do what is right regardless of what others may think or how much you may or may not profit by your actions.  Here is an example of the lack of authenticity and integrity that plagues politics today.  This concerns the upcoming Republican debate.

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Yesterday, I was reading the following story on several different news outlets.  One headline on the N.Y. Times read “Defend Trump and ‘Hammer’ Ramaswamy: DeSantis Allies Reveal Debate Strategy.”  The principal points that the coaches suggested to DeSantis were as follows:

  • Take a sledgehammer to Vivek Ramaswamy, the political newcomer who is rising in the polls.
  • Defend Donald Trump when Chris Christie inevitably attacks the former president.
  • Attack Joe Biden and the media no less than three to five times.

If the guidance above does not smell to you as garbage, then I apologize.  But please don’t tell us that “Well, this is politics.”  I hope we all expect more of our politicians than people who ignore authenticity and integrity to score cheap points in a debate.  Nevertheless, this is what politics in America has become.  Now there always was and always will be devious and unethical methods used to get elected.  Study the history of Thomas Jefferson and you can see the media at work two hundred and fifty years ago to smear his name because of his alleged affair with a slave named Sally Hemings.  But if we don’t start expecting more, when will things change?

We may be at a crossroads in America.  A large percentage of people no longer respect politicians and lawyers (they seem to go together).  Many people are clamoring for less government.  Governmental agencies have lost a great deal of their former influences due to the actions of our leaders.

A study on respect for government found the following:

A Pew Research Center survey finds that just 20% of Americans say they trust the federal government just about always or most of the time. — Dec 5, 2021

Two studies on feelings towards lawyers in the USA found:

In a Gallup poll from 2015, only 4% of respondents rated the “honesty and ethical standards” of lawyers as “very high.” In that same poll, more than one-third (34%) rated attorneys’ honesty and ethical standards as low (25%) or very low (9%).

A landmark study for the American Bar Association found even harsher truths underlying the popular perception of attorneys:

74% of those surveyed agreed that “lawyers are more interested in winning than in seeing that justice is served.”

69% believed “lawyers are more interested in making money than in serving their clients.”

These studies were done eight years ago.  I would bet you a 100 to 1 that feelings towards lawyers today are even worse than they were eight years ago.  Former Vice President Pence recently referred to “Trump’s gaggle of crack pot lawyers.”  Trump and eighteen other cohorts have now been indicted in respect to his scheme to overthrow the 2020 presidential election.  Seven of those indicted were lawyers.  If you ever believed that lawyers follow a “Code of Ethics” you may well wonder where Trump’s lawyers went to school.

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You might wonder if authenticity and integrity are just for the average person.  It certainly seems that “above” average people including the rich and famous do not subscribe to the same playbook that is recommended for the rest of us.  Why then worry about a “Search for Authenticity?”  Will it keep you happy?  Will it make a difference in your life?  Here is what some other people and religions have to say about it.

“Authenticity is a collection of choices that we have to make every day. It’s about the choice to show up and be real. The choice to be honest. The choice to let our true selves be seen.”  ― Brene Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection

“If you don’t know who you truly are, you’ll never know what you really want.”  ― Roy T. Bennett

“Only the truth of who you are, if realized, will set you free.”  ― Eckhart Tolle

“But above all, my brothers, do not swear, either by heaven or by earth or by any other oath, but let your “yes” be yes and your “no” be no, so that you may not fall under condemnation.” — James 5:12 ESV

“The objective of Islamic ethics is to illuminate the virtues that enable a person to perfect his or her humanity.” — Omar Qureshi, Finding the Authentic Self

“In Buddhism, living authentically means living with honesty and being willing to look at your own illusions and self-deceptions. It also means questioning your self-images and self-limiting identities, and examining the stories you weave about yourself.” — Tricycle, The Buddhist Review

Conclusions:

  • Do not believe what I am telling you. Search for your own authenticity.
  • Find out what it means to “Be Yourself.” What is yourself?
  • Find a mentor, partner or someone who will be honest with you. Do an authenticity check with them every so often.  Ask them if you are an authentic person.
  • Who do you most admire? Are they authentic?  Do they have integrity?  If not, why do you admire them?
  • Are you voting for and supporting people who are authentic and have integrity? Why not?
  • What barriers exist in your life to being authentic?

Next week we will look at Man/Woman’s Search for Love.

I doubt that a person ever existed who did not want or search for love.  Love is older than the Greek gods, older than the Bible, older than the universe.  Everyone knows what love is and no one knows what love is.  Everyone wants love but few really know how to give love.  Love may be the most frequently used word in any language.   It is probably the most frequently misused word in any language as well.  We search for love and many of us will never find it.  Some of us will find it at a very old age and some will find it while very young.  No amount of arguing will ever stop anyone from looking for love.

  1. Arabic: حب (habb)
  2. Chinese: 爱 (ài)
  3. Filipino: Pag-ibig
  4. Swahili: upendo
  5. Hindi — मोहब्बत (mohabbat)
  6. Indonesian: cinta
  7. Japanese: 愛 (ai)
  8. Persian: عشق (ishq)
  9. Punjabi: ਪਿਆਰ (pyaar)
  10. Russian: любовь (lyubov’)
  11. Spanish: Amor

PS:

At the first Republican debate Wednesday night, Seven of the eight Republican presidential candidates on the debate stage raised their hands to confirm that they would support former President Trump as the 2024 GOP nominee, even if Trump is convicted in a court of law. Former Arkansas Gov. Asa Hutchinson was the only candidate to keep his hand down.  Some readers have commented that one or the other of these candidates have set themselves apart from Trump and are no longer sycophants.  I think these raised hands are enough evidence to prove that there is little or no integrity in the Republican Leadership today. 

 

 

Shadows of My Mind

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Driving by a little town named Thorp in Central Wisconsin a week ago the memories of my former Mother-in-law and Father-in-law flashed through my mind.  Thorp, Wisconsin was where I was married in 1967 to a young girl just out of high school.  I was still in the military and had two years left to serve.  We had met at an Air Force radar site in Osceola, Wisconsin.  Thorp was a small town of about 1200 people best known for Thorp Finance, cows, cheese curds and high school basketball.  My ex-wife’s father Jack had achieved a certain amount of fame in the area as a very successful high school coach.

Julie (my bride) and I were married in a Catholic church with Julie about 5 months pregnant.  Both of us either in too much lust or too much love to bother with contraception.  My father advised me not to marry her.  In his view, any girl who got pregnant before marriage was a whore.  He also stated this opinion in a letter I received just before the wedding.  On the other hand, Jack (my soon to be father-in-law) and Joan (my future mother-in-law) both said that they did not want us to ruin our lives and offered to raise our child as their own.  That kindness and generosity was prevalent throughout our sixteen-year marriage.  I was of course too chivalrous to accept their offer.  Christina my first and only child was born on April 19, 1968.  I never had any qualms about her being born or raising her.  I am sure that my ex-wife never had any regrets either.

  • With each turning page, may we understand,
  • The shadows we hold, a part of life’s grand plan.
  • In this chapter, dear friend, we shall explore,
  • The beauty that thrives, when shadows we adore.
    • From “Whispers of Shadows A Journey to Embrace” by Angeljomarsal2

Over the years, shadows of places that I have been, people that I have known and events that I have attended come uninvited into my mind.  Sometimes provoked by a journey, other times by something I am reading and other times by a picture or a song, these shadows conjure up a wide range of feelings.  Regret, disappointment, happiness, sadness, and melancholy accompany many such shadows that flicker like a candle and soon burn out.  They take me back to other places and other years.  I am sure that such Shadows of the Mind are frequent companions to all of us as we age.  I want to call forth some of these now.  Like the line in Faust, I summon them!  I summon them!

Shadows of Places:

images (1)I think of the places I have been.  Their memories come randomly.  Sometimes I remember being 16 at the New York Worlds Fair in 1964.  Roaming around by myself with no particular agenda.  The Vatican Pieta exhibit really made an impression on me.  Then it was my year in Biloxi, Mississippi.  Scuba diving off Ship Island whenever I could get a break from my Air Force duties.   Unalakleet, Alaska where I spent a year on a remote mountain top off the Bering Sea.  Dating Eskimos and Indians who were the first women I ever really cared about.  After leaving Alaska for Wisconsin, I developed a whole new family to start life with as a responsible father and husband.

Karen and I have visited 34 countries since we were married in 1989.  This year we will add number thirty-five to the list with South Africa.  What I remember most about many of these trips are the running trails I found each day.  In Caye Caulker, it was a trail through reputed crocodile infested Mangos around the island.  In Paris, it was down the river Seine going up bridges to cross the river than running down to the foot path following the river.  In Ireland, it was running over the Burren’s in Ballyvaughan and then down the beach along the Galway coast.  In Israel it was along a road bordered by huge Bougainvillea plants on both sides that led to the town of Migdal which is the reputed birthplace of Mary Magdalene.  In Greece I ran along a beach on the Island of Naxos past beautiful blue and white chapels.  In Italy, I ran through the village of Quadrelle each morning and ended up at a small coffee shop where to the seeming horrors of locals I would drink three cappuccinos before I left.

“Come back. Even as a shadow, even as a dream.”  ― Euripides

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I have shadows of the many cities I have run in.  I still wonder how I managed to find a way to run in San Francisco, Chicago, Los Angeles, Manhattan, Prague, Munich, London, Shanghai, Tokyo, Taiwan, and other congested places.  In Tokyo, I remember running a circuit around the emperor’s palace and being eyed warily by the palace guards.  In Prague, I remember running on the Charles Bridge with its many statues and a wide variety of street vendors.  In Shanghai, I ran past Chinese doing their early morning Tai Chi exercises on a pavilion near where we were staying.  In Munich I watched a large parade celebrating an unknown German festival.  The parade included contingents from each area in Germany in their native costumes.  Shadows from all these places come and go without notice.  Sometimes I know what triggers them and other times it is a mystery.  But then there are the shadows of events.

Shadows of Events:

images (2)There are many lists of “places” to see but much fewer lists of great events to see.  Events are harder to find.  Some occur every year like the Newport Jazz Festival and others are one off events like the Woodstock Music Festival.  We frequently do not find out about events until they are over.  In our travels, Karen and I have discovered posters of local events.  Generally, they are not within our travel dates, or they have already occurred.  Sometimes though we have been lucky enough to “trip” over an event and attend it.  On occasion, it has been through the advice of local people who have told us about the event.

One of the most interesting events that we ever attended was the Tetbury Music Festival.  We found out about it in advance after we had already booked a small cottage in Tetbury, England.

“The Tetbury Music Festival takes place over the first weekend of October every year, and the days running up to it.  A visit to the beautiful and ancient town of Tetbury in the Cotswolds makes the perfect cultural weekend break.  It is a highlight for locals as well as for those travelling from across the UK and overseas for the internationally acclaimed musicians. Concerts range from early to classical to contemporary music, with lectures and interviews to share insight, understanding and new ways of appreciating the context in which these great works were written.”

When Karen found out that they were looking for some choir members she wrote the music director and asked for permission to join the choir.  Permission was granted.  Karen received the music.  We were able to arrive in time for Karen to attend one rehearsal.  A week or so later, the festival was held, and Karen was part of it.  It was great fun for all of us and gave Karen an experience that she will never forget.

“I am not bound for any public place, but for ground of my own where I have planted vines and orchard trees, and in the heat of the day climbed up into the healing shadow of the woods.” — Wendell Berry

We attend many events in the USA.  Karen took up the mountain dulcimer about fifteen years ago.  Over the years, we have attended yearly music festivals in Avon, Minnesota; Bardstown, Kentucky; and Mountain View, Arkansas.  For Karen these events are times for her to play music with others and to learn more dulcimer skills.  I attend nightly performances but during the day roam around to discover events and places of my own preferences.  From cave touring to distillery tours, to monasteries and to finding my way around old battlefields and cemeteries, I am never at a loss for things to do.  There are so many events I have run across but are now only shadows in my mind.  Many if not most will never happen again for me.  But we keep pursuing new events.  Next year I am planning to do what may probably be my final set of scuba dives in Belize.  Last but certainly not least, are shadows of the people we have met.

Shadows of People:

download (1)In one of my blogs, I noted the distinction between being a tourist and being a pilgrim.  One definition of a tourist is “A person visiting a place for pleasure.”  My definition of a pilgrim is non-religious.  You do not have to be on a sacred mission to be a pilgrim.  I propose the idea of a pilgrim as someone who takes part in the cultures they are visiting.  Someone who is not looking in from the outside like at a visitor to a Hawaiian Luau but someone who joins the celebrants.  They say there are three types of people.  Those who do not know that there is a parade.  Those who watch the parade.  Those who are in the parade.  Tourists are watchers.  Pilgrims are in the parade.  In many of our travels, Karen and I have managed to “be in the parade” at least for a short while.

“There is no easy walk to freedom anywhere, and many of us will have to pass through the valley of the shadow of death again and again before we reach the mountaintop of our desires.”  — Nelson Mandela

Our finding a way to become a Pilgrim has generally taken place because of two factors.  One is that we usually stay in a small apartment or rental for at least three weeks at one location.  This has allowed us to meet people.  Meeting local people is the key to becoming part of the culture.  We will never be a true part of the culture, but we can be more than just tourists by being open to people and anxious to explore their culture.

Many of the friends we have met while traveling have invited us to their homes or to attend events such as a boat party off the Isle of Capris in Italy.  Another unexpected trip we took occurred when I was teaching in Taiwan.  A student of mine invited us to join her and her husband on a weekend vacation to some remote areas in Taiwan.  In Switzerland, a couple we met at a soccer game invited us to dinner and a tour of the alps.  We toured some areas I would never have driven due to the steep inclines and my lack of knowledge of local roads.

imagesWe have so many memories of friends met during travels.  Friends such as Alex and Heidi in Cervelló, Spain enriched our lives and made our trip to Spain more than memorable.  Xibo and Mary were friends we met on our Chinese trip in 1989.  They accompanied us on several adventures in China.   Years later, we helped them to emigrate to the USA.  They now live in San Francisco with their daughter, son-in-law and three grandchildren.  In Seoul, we attended a birthday party for our grandson Sam after our adopted Korean daughter Susan found her birth mother.  A year after Sam was born, we traveled back with Susan to Korea for the celebration of his one-year birthday with Susan and her birth family.

“Who never doubted, never half believed. Where doubt is, there truth is – it is her shadow.”  —Ambrose Bierce

download (2)A “Last Man Standing Bottle” includes some of the most interesting people I ever met in Frederic, Wisconsin.  We would gather every weekday in the town library to discuss books, politics, guns, cars, ideology, and any other ideas brought up.  We agreed 10 years ago to create this iconic “Bottle” for our coffee group.  Since putting the Old Granddad Bourbon in a beautiful case with a pendant that had our names on it, four of our members have passed away.  The group disbanded with the advent of Covid and was never resurrected.  The bottle now sits in a case at the Frederic Train Museum along with many other relics from Frederic.  I am 76 years old and the youngest of the three remaining bottle members.  The shadows of Dick, Jerry, Brian, and Ken periodically go through my mind.  I remember each of them so vividly in respect to ideas, but their physical aspects are just lingering shadows who periodically are guests of my thoughts.

Shadows of my life keep flitting through my mind,

Bringing back days and nights long departed,

Memories of father, mother, brother, sister, and friends once dined,

Now only shadows that grace my table, each whispering “uncharted.”

The Four Most Important Searches in Our Lives – The Search for Adequacy

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It is my belief that we all want to feel that we can do something well.  Something that we will be proud of and perhaps something that we can be remembered for.  Adequacy is not being exceptional or a gold medal winner.  It is simply feeling that we can succeed at something and that we are competent at something.  Adequacy is the opposite of inadequate.  When we feel inadequate, we feel that something is missing in our lives, and we feel inferior.  No one wants to feel inferior.  Many of us will search our whole lives for a feeling of adequacy.

Some people think that we are born with an “original” sin.  I think we are born with an original disease.  I call it “Comparisonitis.”  It is the tendency to compare ourselves to others and to be compared to others.  This disease starts at birth and haunts us our entire lives.  We are compared in school with grades, at work with performance evaluations, at sports with ranking and even intellectually with IQ tests.  We are constantly measured against other people.  Most of us are found wanting.  We are instilled with a sense of inadequacy that infects our lives.  Our Search for Adequacy is a search to overcome the inadequacy driven by society, family, and friends.

S363910When we are born, we are compared to growth charts and Gesell Developmental schedules. for our development.  Lag behind and your parents will be worried.  As we grow up, we get compared to sisters, brothers, cousins, and others.  Who has not heard the comment “You are just like your father,” or “your sister had straight A’s when she was your age.”  In school, we will be tested from kindergarten through college on a variety of measures designed to see how we stack up.  Each state will routinely rate the children in a school district or region to compare to other children in the country.  Children and schools are then ranked and rated from best to worst.  Everyone with any eyes and a brain knows that the school districts with the most money will almost always have the highest rated schools.

Dr. Deming believed that such rankings and ratings had no statistical validity.  During Covid, the comment was repeatedly made that we must get kids back to school because they are falling behind.  I am bewildered since I do not know what they could be falling behind.  Standardized testing is one of the worse things to ever happen to education and so-called education experts continuously come up with statistically worthless comparisons to warn us about how bad our children are doing compared to other nations.

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Let me give you two examples of how worthless these claims are about success and falling behind.  First example, If I read a novel, in about six to eight weeks, I will have forgotten at least 80 percent of what I have read.  Textbooks are even worse in terms of retention. After I finished my Ph.D. program, how much of the material that I had covered in courses the previous 4 years do you think I retained?  Was I falling behind the Japanese?  Was I falling behind the Ph.D. students still in school?  How can you fall behind when it is perfectly normal to lose memory of anything from mathematics to languages if you do not routinely use them.

Second example.  I had French for seven years in middle school and high school.  A year after leaving high school, I could not speak a sentence in French if my life depended on it.  I passed seven years of French studies but without speaking it regularly with anyone.  Most of the knowledge I gained of the French language was worthless.  Dare I say most of the knowledge taught in schools is worthless.  Meaning that if it will not be used in life, it will not do you one bit of good.  I think of the classes I took in Algebra as another example.  This was a class that I received an A in.  I loved mathematics when I was in school.  I still am waiting to use any of my long-forgotten Algebra skills.  I will make an exception to my above complaints for schools.  If you have a good memory and you go on a Trivia contest, some of your schooling may help you to win a first place.

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Comparisons in the workplace can be and often are just as egregious and useless as comparisons in schools.  Performance appraisals, performance ratings and other HR devices to measure individual productivity are notoriously misleading.  People are ranked and rated by measures with little or no statistical validity.  You may work for one supervisor that rates employees very leniently and another who is a Simon Legree.  Merit raises may be based on “who you know” and awards such as “employee of the month” are usually nothing more than popularity contests.  Dr. Deming called performance evaluations one of his seven deadly diseases for companies.  In “Out of the Crisis”, page 101, Dr. Deming states the following as one of the seven deadly diseases:

“Evaluation of performance, merit rating, or annual review… The idea of a merit rating is alluring. the sound of the words captivates the imagination: pay for what you get; get what you pay for; motivate people to do their best, for their own good. The effect is exactly the opposite of what the words promise.”

One of my favorite quotes is a statement by Senator Hubert Humphrey which is engraved on a wall at the University of Minnesota.  He stated the following:

“Democracy is a system that achieves extraordinary results with ordinary people.”

In my consulting experience, I often found organizations stating that they wanted to hire the best people out there.  Even considering the faulty means of evaluating candidates that are often used by companies, the fact remains that there are not enough extraordinary people to go around.  I encouraged companies to follow Dr. Deming’s advice.  Do not rely on ratings and rankings to compare people.  It was Deming’s belief that most people wanted to do a good job.  The system usually placed the majority of limits on what an employee could do.  Thus, it was management’s responsibility to remove the barriers and obstacles in the system preventing and limiting increased productivity.  No amount of exhortations and warnings of firing will make a difference in a bad system.  Another famous Deming quote was “Put a good person in a bad system and the system will win every time.” 

2021-Billionaires_Main_NovAbout fifteen years ago, I wanted to test out a hypothesis.  Forbes Magazine each year publishes its list of 200 richest people in the world.   It gives a great deal of information about each person such as schooling and net worth.  I wanted to test whether or not a college degree made a difference in net worth.  I added up the overall net worth of all college graduates and compared it to the overall net worth of all those who did not complete college.  About fifty five percent of the Forbes richest people had either a bachelor’s degree or a master’s degree.  The remaining forty five percent either did not enter college or did not finish college.  Who do you think earned more money?  Imagine my surprise to find that the average net worth of non-college degreed rich people was 3.5 billion dollars compared to 2.5 billion dollars for degreed people.  All the hype on college degrees may just help make colleges richer.

Is it any wonder that so many of us grow up feeling inadequate?  Our Search for Adequacy is full of roadblocks and barriers.  I could go into the realm of sports in schools to demonstrate this even further but anyone who went to high school or college knows how biased this system is.  Schools teach competition versus cooperation and comparison versus individuality.  Thus, millions of us wonder about our value and standing in a society that seems bent on destroying our self-esteem.

Conclusions:  

  1. We search and we search but will we ever find that we are adequate? How can we find what society seems to want to hide from us? 
  2. Do not allow yourself to be compared to others. We are all unique and we all have unique skills.  No two people on the face of the earth have ever been and ever will be exactly alike.  Even identical twins who may share the exact same DNA will have slightly different fingerprints.
  3. Read what Dr. Deming and other statistical experts have to say about the value of testing and rating systems. Knowledge and understanding of statistics can help you to see whether or not a system is useful or destructive.
  4. Find a support system that will help to build your self-esteem. We all need help from others.  Find positive people to help you and stay away from people that demean your skills and abilities. My spouse Karen belongs to two music groups, one for mountain dulcimers and one for the ukulele.  She also belongs to a quilting group. These groups are comprised of positive people who help each other.  There are no tests for dulcimer playing.  No teachers comparing each ukulele student to other ukulele students.  No employers ranking and rating employees on their quilting performance.

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Next week we will look at Man/Woman’s Search for Authenticity.

Authenticity is being true to yourself.  It is being who you really are versus who others want you to be.  It is being true to a set of values, morals or principles that define a good life.  It is defining oneself and not letting others define you.  What do you want your life to be like?  What will you stand up?  What is worth living for and dying for?  These questions frame a Search for Authenticity which will continue our entire lives.

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